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Drugs were never my thing. Never fancy them. Never tried them...well, except one time....I smoke 2 or 3 puffs of pot. Woke up the next mornin realising how fuckin silly was all that. Fuck...you called that cool? Fools more like it.

I guess at the most, cigarettes are my only downfall....which i terribly regret pickin it up in the first place.

I remember when I was in primary 6 when I got my first taste in smoking. There was this rocker chick in school whom then I thought she was the coolest chick that I have ever seen in my whole life....she's even cooler than the rest of the guys(that includes me....) and besides she's one of the few(and the only chick) I know of who smokes. To me, that was sooooo rock n' roll.

One day, she brought me and another guy schoolmate of ours to a carpark nearby after school. And when we finally found a hidden getaway corner spot, she undo her top buttons of her school uniform blouse. Simply because she had hidden a whole pack of cigarettes in the middle of her lacy white bra....well, back then...there were the small packs of cigarettes so they quite small to be hidden away just like that.

We were stoked...lookin very much like idiots with our mouths wide open....droolin....watchin her doin just that. It's like watchin porn for the very first time.

"So you guys wanna try smokin a stick?"

"YEAH!"

Fuck. I mean...the cigarettes that she givin us are from her FUCKIN BREASTS!!!! REAL BREASTS!!!!

Ha. So yeah...so I guess the habit goes all the way back from there.

Three years ago, I bumped into her recently and we have been great friends ever since. She just laughed out loud whenever I remind her about the whole silly episode on how I first tasted nicotine comin straight off from her chest.

Give me fuckin break.....I was into puberty at that time.

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